i feel like crying. seriously.
daddy had been hospitalised for 3 days ald.
everytime i stepped into his room. it jus hurts my heart.
seeing needle pocking into daddy hands.
i know it has been hard on mummy to take care of both the house and daddy.
running between home and hospital.
so i know i have to be strong and not to add on to her burden.
i know i cannot cry infront of her to let her worry.
i also know that she has been holding back her tears everytime she visit daddy.
i see her eyes turned red. voice trembling. but she needs to put on a strong front.
so daddy dun have to worry.
i really hope nothing will happen to daddy.
his report will be out tmr. hope he can discharged by then.
i really feel uneasy without him around at home.
even though he is in hospital. he is still thinkin bout me.
he remind mummy again and again to pass me my allowance.
he is afraid i have no money to spend.
what hurts my most is when i told him that the hk trip is next week.
the one that im goin supposedly.
and he said. you must know that you are not like other children.
whereas their daddy and mummy can bring them abroad yearly.
and it say he feel very guilty that he cant bring me abroad to far far places every year.
i only want to tell him that it really doesnt matter if i can go abroad yearly.
as long as he is healthy. im happy enough.
i know i always complain that other children can go overseas and i cant.
but i really dun mind now.
i jus hope everything goes right for you.
i really love you. daddy.
i really love you too. mummy.
i noe you are really tired.
and add on to that bastard family.
you are really very tired.
take care of your health alright.
as i type this post. tears rolled down.
finally i find a way to let my emotions out.
it's 10:06 PM now